I gave my first demonstration in my new position as a Technical Services Librarian last week. Reader, I was so shook. The night before the presentation, I slept for maybe three hours, despite going to bed early and taking melatonin. 🥴
I knew that once I agreed to give the demonstration, my anxiety was going to ramp up, but saying no didn’t seem reasonable. I tried to calm myself with the idea that I wouldn’t have been asked to do it if they didn’t think I had the skills to complete the task effectively. That didn’t work though. The only thing that helped was over-preparing and even with that, when it came time to present, my fingers were shaky and I could feel my heart beating. Aaaand my sweat glands were doing too much.
I think it went okay, but I’m so glad it’s over. I’ve been sleeping better and have had less headaches. Public speaking never gets easier, no matter how many times I do it…even if it’s online with my camera off.